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30 days of forgiveness and gratitude.

  1. Day: 1 4/27/2022 – I forgive myself for malice, envy, laziness, unrighteousness, avoidance, folly, cowardness, evasiveness, indecision, and fear.
  2. Day: 2 4/28/2022 – I forgive my mother; for leaving me so soon. I hope you forgive me for pushing you so hard. I wish I had tried harder to be there for you. I miss you, love you, and wish I had spent more time with you. Thanks for inspiring me to do better for the rest of my natural life. See you soon.
  3. Day: 3 4/29/2022 – I forgive my dad; I know you tried hard. I know I will never understand why you did what you did, but it won’t break me, and I hope it doesn’t destroy you. I don’t think it will. 
  4. Day: 4 4/30/2022 – I forgive and love you, my dear, for our past, and I must ask you to forgive me for my storm of venom. I’m not lost anymore. We will probably annoy each other for life, but that’s the allure.
  5. Day: 5 5/1/2022 – I forgive those who practice hate against my race, my presumed stereotype, gender, religion, economic status, etc.
  6. Day: 6 5/2/2022 – I forgive my brother, and I love you endlessly, and I hope you forgive me for being bossy. I adore our 3-hour weekly phone calls. Keep fighting.
  7. Day 7 5/3/2022 – Please forgive me for all my flaws sweet sister.  I forgive you, you annoyed me when I was little, but I was depressed. Seriously, but this isn’t about me. Thanks for being optimistic when I’m not. 
  8. Day 8 5/4/2022 – Let’s be clear; God needs no forgiveness from me. Nor does this position on the list means that GOD is not first: God forgive my anger because I was mad, you know I was. These ideas were in my head of how things should be, and they’re not real. God, please forgive me. I’m not angry anymore. Whatever happens in my life, I know you have a plan.
  9. Day 9 5/5/2022 – I forgive you, Pastor, and I hope you forgive me. My life got strange during and after I left the church. I haven’t been so heartbroken over a loss since mom died. What a complicatedly beautiful friendship we had.
  10. Day 10 5/6/2022- My MIL. I thought our relationship would be flawless: but it was anything but. I forgive you. I hope you forgive me.
  11. Day 11 5/7/2022 – Best friend(s), forgive me for not recognizing the changes in your life. I hope you forgive me. I forgive you.
  12. Day 12 5/8/2022 – To Grandma Ellen and Elma and Great grandmother Gladys, I hope you forgive me as I forgive you; I know there were some dynamics between you and your children that I do not understand. I took it personally, and I should not have. I was old enough to visit you all on my terms, and I did not. I am truly sorry.
  13. Day 13 5/9/2022 – All prior and current coworkers- I forgive. You can meet some real characters at work, but everyone is trying to make a dollar at the end of the day. Everyone has a different idea of what that looks like, and the list goes on. Sorry, all. Sorry for bringing drama or not pulling my weight.
  14. Day 14 5/10/2022 – My Godsons: I love you both. Things don’t ever work out the way we want to but if it was up to me, you’d be closer to me. Forgive me. I’m going to work on that. I am truly sorry
  15. Day 15 5/11/2022 – My church family. I don’t think I will ever find a community as wonderful as my FHC. I apologize tremendously.
  16. Day 16 5/12/2022 – My Jamaican family- I apologize for not reaching out more and connecting on both my grandmother’s and grandfather’s sides. 
  17. Day 17 5/13/2022 – My Trinidadian family – though I am not as well acquainted, I owe you far more effort than I’ve provided. I apologize. You all are so beautiful and noble.  
  18. Day 18 5/14/2022 – Ms. Paula, I am so sorry for being angry at you. You just loved my mom and most likely understood her better than I did. I wish you were here. Enjoy the streets of gold.
  19. Day 19 5/15/2022 – Carlyle, I remember being so angry at you and I said what if we never see each other again! Me and my big mouth! I know life and death are in the power of the tongue. I’m sorry. 
  20. Day 20 5/16/2022 – To my failed relationships. I’m sorry. I know culturally we write off failed relationships and yes, it’s a part of growth, but I’m still sorry if I inflicted pain.
  21. Day 21 5/17/2022 – To my dog, yes, my dog. Copper, you deserved way better care than I provided you. I’m sorry.
  22. Day 22 5/18/2022 – to a high school friend -There are two versions of you and that’s why this is a long one. You who had an extremely small role in my life and what you symbolized in my life. I forgive you and I hope you forgive me. You probably didn’t even know that the not good enough feeling you gave me in high school made you a symbol of shortcomings for life in my dreams.
  23. Day 23 5/19/2022 –To a high school friend and the mother of my godson in heaven. I hope you forgive me for not being there for your family.
  24. Day 24 5/20/2022 – To my oldest stepson who is so much like me emotionally, I apologize for failing you. Please forgive me.
  25. Day 25 5/21/2022 – To my youngest stepson, I apologize for failing you. I never meant to be a “stepmom”; I wanted to stay out of your parent’s business and be there if you need me. Forgive me. 
  26. Day 26 5/22/2022 – My twin, I don’t know why you didn’t make it but, If it was my fault, you didn’t make it, I’m sorry. It was an interesting up brining I had, It would’ve been nice to share it with you.
  27. Day 27 5/23/2022 – To my God brother, I apologize for not considering your feelings in some of the events that unfolded in our life. 
  28. Day 28 5/24/2022 – To my Godparents, I don’t understand all the events that have unfolded in our lives, but I hope you forgive me for anything I’ve done. I love you both. 
  29. Day 29 5/25/2022 – To my former classmates, you all were tough. I forgive all of those who made fun of me. I know we were young, but I took it with me. Please forgive me if I ever offended any of you. 
  30. Day 30 5/26/2022 – To a confidant – I unload a lot on you. Forgive me. I also held it against you for not being present during some pivotal events in my life and I release you. I’m just happy you’re willing to hear me out even if I’m doing all the talking.

Kimpressively

2 responses to “30 days of forgiveness and gratitude.”

  1. I love this Kimberly. I’m pleased to see that you’re understanding the complicated dynamics of family and to not take it personally when family members fail you. Please forgive me for not being there as often as I should. It’s been a complicated life but let’s move forward to establish the relationship that we want. Love ❤️

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    • I am so happy you found me here. Of course!I hope you forgive me! I love you so. Life is too beautiful and short to not let go!

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