In my alternate universe, I would relive my life from beginning to current in a simulation. In this simulation, I would be able to correct the mistakes I’ve made and see the outcomes of different choices.

In this simulation, I will have the same beginnings, but I will have the opportunity to change everything else. I would use the knowledge from my current life, as well as what relatives have told me about my life before I became aware, to make different decisions. In this universe, I would experience what it would have been like without my ignorance and stupidity. I would choose not to date as I believe romantic relationships are one of my greatest stumbling blocks. I know that I am infertile. Given my acceptance and peace, I would’ve used my energy more wisely. Instead, I would use the knowledge of my mom and actively attempt to save her. I would focus on studying more and wouldn’t worry about my appearance, knowing now that it was mainly due to hormones. I would take church less seriously and prioritize prayer and reading. Learning and spiritual growth would be a priority in my alternate universe. I would learn horticulture and invest in real estate. Setting a standard of helping others in need would also be a priority. Additionally, I would have booked a flight on my 18th birthday in May 2001 just to experience traveling without TSA one more time. Traveling would become a normal part of my life, and I would pursue my dual citizenship earlier.